I never worry when I sit down to create something, I know that God gave me this gift of creativity and I just take it for granted that I it happens automatically, just like cooking or driving. I just know how.

I also know how to trust God in other things, like health issues, money problems, elderly parents, etc. When I do, He automatically just takes care of everything. But that just doesn't come as naturally, without thinking and worrying first, without fretting and then remembering OH YEAH! Let me give this to God He can do MUCH better than I can. I have known this stuff for a long time. I have seen miracle after miracle in my life. I KNOW better. When will it be as automatic as cooking or creating!

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Irritability and Ice

I thought it was menopause starting, this terrible impatient, crabby feeling I have all the time. Kept praying that I would be more NICE and it just wasn't happening. Had my yearly physical and found out I am anemic, me, who is always as healthy as a horse. So I google it and one of the symptoms is IRRITABILITY! So that's what I am! And I get to have an excuse for it! I also get to get a colonoscopy...oh joy! One of the other things that goes with it is a carving for ice, dirt or starch. Well I have been chewing ice like crazy for a while here and my husband yells at me constantly because he can't stand the sound of the crunching. Now I have an excuse for that too! I AM SICK HONEY! See, there is always good with the bad.

I never really feel my age, at least not until today when I was applying for new health insurance. I didn't realize that it was gonna be such a big rig-a-marole! Geez, now why did I take that Xantac 9 years ago??? And why is my left eyelash crooked?? My husband and I hardly have any medical issues but the interrogation was immense! And it seems like we are falling apart after filling out that form! BC/BS is raising our rate to $1800 a month for just the 2 of us and that's with bunches of co-pays so we gotta look around. That's more than a house payment!!
I still feel young, act young, and try to look young but this sure was a reality slap in the face!!
Oh well, if you didn't know how old you are, how old would you think you are? I think I am 32 and I am stickin' to it!

Today was a good day. I took my mom to the oncologist to get results of her cat scan and was told that the cancer has not spread anywhere else and hopefully they can remove the tumor in her colon with laproscopic surgery. Relief! Another blessing.
So since I was so relieved I felt like going to one of my most favorite stores...Silver Quill Antiques...near my house. I go often and the owner Linda has been a big supporter and encourager of my creativity for a long time. She always has new things, not only antiques but artsy jewelry and art glass. It's always rearranged in new ways, and believe me there is A LOT of stuff in there. She has a doorway that is always decorated for the season with a desk next to it that has the neatest seasonal things displayed artfully on it. I told her today that she is a display artist! One time she had the most beautiful sheer curtains with little embroidered rosebuds tastefully arranged to hang around this doorway. I commented on them and she told me they were called VINTAGE and where she bought them. I went out and bought them for my living room! Art can be done in more ways than with a paintbrush or pen or paper. This lady has been rearranging her shop faithfully on a regular basis for 30+ years and it is a work of art every time. Not to mention her eye for unusual art pieces that she mixes up with the antiques. Yep! She is an artist too.
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